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the 4th day of CNY

my dear went to japan AGAIN.. leave me alone AGAIN, AGAIN and AGAIN.. arghhh!!!

i cried for a whole month when he went there for the first time when i was form three.. he went there for doing business.. i know it is a hard job, if he can, he will choose not going there.. but he cant.. because it is a must.. T.T time flied by so fast, and now, it was the 9th times (if i'm not mistaken), he went there again.. i thought i wont cry for this time.. seriously.. i thought i will look smart.. the afternoon of the day before, he hug me..

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at that moment, i was really "beh tahan".. my tears like heavy downpour.. my non-stop tears drop on his shoulder.. i am not willing to let him go.. i know he is not willing to leave me alone so, but he didnt even cry in front of me.. huh!!! i used to dreaming that i possess a doraemon, so that, i can pass these three lonely months faster or even pass it away..

while he was at japan, i used to stay in front of my laptop, see whenever he is online..

no more shopping
no more dim sum
no more lobster and chicken steak
no more mamak
no more old town
no more duriansss

However,

adapt to having a LONELY life
adapt to having a PEACEFUL life
=)

the 5th day of CNY

6am

awaked by his call.. he has reached japan and gotta start work.. then sleep again..

1230pm

wake up.. brushing and switch on my laptop.. what a silence day.. ZzzZzz i miss dim sum at the taman connaught.. i eat nothing delicious food, but eating maggi mee.. plus no more eggs in the fridge.. a kosong maggi mee.. It's your FAULT.. huh! all the day, brushing, eating, playing and sleeping..

Tomorrow

*smile sweetly.. hang out with my dear friends.. see you guys..


By the way, woohoohoo.. wishing you all having a HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR..

DREAMING

i have no idea what i'm wanna to do.. i have TWO assignments which have same due date on 15th jan.. but.. i'm.. lazy start doing those.. i know i used to submit on the day.. =p i'm even.. lazy get up from bed.. sleep, sleep, sleep until 2pm or 3pm then only persuded to wake up.. lazy dress up myself.. lazy take shower.. i stay in an air-conditioning room the whole day, didnt go out, wont dirty marr.. i think so.. lazy driving.. lazy go to lowyat for repairing my dumb hp.. AND, lazy to buy some food to fulfill my small tummy.. the dominant reason is i'm forcing myself not to eat because i ate one whole biji durian last night.. damn regret for eating it.. huh.. then, laziness is the minor reason.. hohoho.. my habit of catering is so bad.. my gastric problem started as my this bad habit.. huh.. wanna DIET marr.. always get scolding because i'm dont know how to take care myself.. dear, do you willing to take care me in my whole life?

i'm dreaming now.. if i'm a princess.. if i possess a car like Bill Gates.. if i possess my dream house..

IF...

an ideal home in the oasis of the middle of a jungle.. the jungle with thousands of indigeneous trees thrive.. most likely as the movie of Avatar.. bling-bling tree but not fiierce wild animals.. away from the hustle and bustle of the city streets.. away from assignments.. away from sadness and worriness.. fulfill with peaceful and happiness.. no diseases, no natural disasters, and no wars. face with stainless steel sculptures of a family of playful dolphins in the middle of an ornamental fountain and an amazing wading pool with tiers of man-made waterfalls behind my room.. garden paths and a simple wooden bridge across a stream.. a botanical site which planting veges and fruits.. got my lovely strawberries, grape-fruits, grapes, sweet oranges, mangosteens, durians, rambutans and so forth.. a happy farm with penguins, lambs, horses, chickens, ostricts, cows, sheeps, reindeers, geese, turkeys, elephants and ducks.. an exquisitely flowering garden that was conveniently planted right side of the living room windows.. there are roses, lilies, etc.

a large multi-windowed living room which is being flooded with indirect sunlight.. upholstered arm chairs.. the fireplace, clothe with dancing flames, provides the small amount of heat that may be needed on a cool night.. and so forth.. an uderworld with dolphins and fishes inside the living room.. robots serve me and help me do the rest of the works..

Bill Gates' living room

modest+classical karaoke room..

dancing room with large mirrors, rounded at the top, fitted with of graceful designs.. the pale blue of the walls combine with the white of the ceiling to create peaceful and relax features..

dining room

study room

Does this sound enticing, or what?

*knock knock knock.. wake up lorr.. back to reality.. face with assignments.. face with exams.. face with books and notes with long grandmother story that make me yawning and fall in sleep.. OH MY GOD!!!

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR...

“第一次”

2009年就这样地过了。。


31-12-09

这一天。。我的爸妈都不在我的身边。。在这一天里，献出了很多我的“第一次”。。


第一次，妈咪不在我的身边。。从小到大，她都没离开过我们。。虽然我今年二十岁，可是在她的眼前却是一个只有两岁的小宝宝。。是一个受保护的动物。。是一个家中的小霸王。。我说一，没人敢说二。。要什么，她都会尽量满足我。。有什么不爽，只要嘟起嘴巴，妈咪就会当我是小宝宝一样哄我疼我。。这一天，她第一次离开我的身边。。很想念她现在过得怎样。。没人看着我睡觉。。很不习惯。。眼睛湿了又湿。。她不在，在家里就只剩下我和弟弟。。我就是一家之主。。什么都要亲力亲为了。。没有人再在我的旁边助我一臂之力。。

很想念妈咪。。真的真的很想念。。这种感受和在他离开我的身边去日本时的感受是一样的。。寂寞。。无助。。孤单。。

为了不要常吃外面油腻的食物，只得自己煮饭。。天啊。。真的天啊。。平时煮maggi面都拿去微波炉烘热就吃了。。现在得煮饭。。@_@ 平时都没煎过一粒鸡蛋的我。。现在。。很无奈。。=.= 住了饭还得自己洗碗。。我的玉手从小动洗碗液都没超过几次。。T.T 洗衣晒衣。。妈咪临走之前才教我怎样用洗衣机。。放多少的衣服就要多少的水位。。还千叮万咐我记得要分色。。黑色归黑色。。白色归白色。。红色归红色。。平时过得太好了吧。。虽然我不是什么千金小姐，可是一直以来的生活就像一个千金小姐。。从未做过家务。。最多新年前才叫我收拾好我的房间。。

更可笑的是。。当弟弟要煮maggi面来吃时，开煤气炉，一次开不到，两次开不到，第三次时，火炉的火太大了。。把手指的毛都烧焦了。。>.< 我可以做的只有开怀大笑。。


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第一次，载妈咪出去之前。。我平时走惯的路塞车，所以只好走另一条路。。怎知一个大洞，我又闪不及。。 kong gong。。两声。。再走时，我的车车就发出一些奇怪的声音。。ki li kok lok。。停在一旁下车看。。没事啊。。可是怪声令我不敢再驾，我就被妈咪骂了一脸臭屁，然后她自己搭的士出去。。然后我再驾着龟速回家，结果才发现我的轮胎没完风了。。OH MY GOD!!! 妈咪第一次离开我们的身边，我就闹出这么一单事情。。惨了！我一个女生和一个烂轮胎。。怎么办？把还梦着周公的勇威吵醒了。。他来到我的家，才对我说，他。。


第一次。。换轮胎。。sweating.. =.=" 打开车尾盖，要拿spare tayar出来，拿不出。。tu tu tu。。原来有螺丝锁住了。。okay。。拿了spare tayar出来。。到要拿撑起车身的那个东东，又拿不出。。研究研究。。tu tu tu tu tu tu。。（看人家换轮胎换到那么轻松，1，2，3，4， 搞定了，那为什么现在我们好像一关闯一关）终于转开了。。真的好像发现新大陆一样。。=.= de deng de deng。。越来越挑战，难关到了。。开不到轮的螺丝。。我们两个笨蛋，用手来拉。。我看啊。。拉到手烂手断，轮都原封不动。。hehe。。谁说我们是笨蛋，用脚踩不是不用那么费力吗？huh。。四个螺丝终于开了。。嘻嘻。。换好了。。拿去车场修理我的烂轮。。原来车车的轮里面的rim凹了所以从那里漏风了。。要烧焊弄回。。烧一烧焊要我RM60！！！贵到。。。。。。huh

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弄了一整天终于修理好了。。good!!!


我的“第一次”和勇威的“第一次”。。。嘻嘻。。