merry xmas and a happy new year

we went to cheras leisure mall during xmas week.. a Christmas programme "Toy Bank" set up at the lower ground concourse really attract us to stop our step to pay attention on it.. it is actually a charity drive themed "a gift of LOVE" was in aid of orphans.. displaying lots of gingerbread-man-shaped cards containing names of the orphans that encourage shoppers to donate toys or gifts to them.. each card represents some wishes of the children that hope to receive as a xmas gift..

someone who have the ambitious to contribute it in order to achieve the children's wishes.. Picking up cards that bearing the names of the children, and then stick them with gifts which have bought and deposit them into the toy bank...

we attracted by a card which she is a 18-year-old girl.. she wishes she could get trendy sport shoe, jacket or even trendy bag.. when i saw the card, dont know why, suddenly have a desire that wanna achieve her wishes.. but on that day dont have any night market.. i couldnt buy a beg and the management will be send the gifts to the children on 29th december.. the timing is too rush.. =.= if not, i would buy a beg for her.. kasihannya.. *sob sob

a good deed is always welcome, especially when it is about love.. i like to do good deeds and willing to do so.. why? because i am always dreaming and wishing i could become an angel in heaven and not send to hell.. sound insane.. haha..^^


say bye bye to santa uncle.. see you next year.. xmas has just passed by..

before the xmas......

I WISH I COULD GET A WATCH
I WISH I COULD GET A WATCH
I WISH I COULD GET A WATCH
I WISH I COULD GET A WATCH
I WISH I COULD GET A WATCH

almost of the " blink blink diamonds" of my lousy swatch watch have fall down.. "london brige is falling down, falling down.." but my one is "lousy watch is falling down.. falling down.." LOL.. as i know, all the swatch are wholesaling in a big amount and made by machinery.. so, there are not exquisite.. but the price is set as quite high range.. =.= the promoters said there is no spare parts of swatch, if something has broken, just can throw it away.. 0.O i wont buy swatch anymore.. huh

*wink wink the city chain is happening promotion.. sale 10% sale 20% and up to sale 70%.. we went into it.. and FINALLY my dream has come true.. he bought me a TITUS watch.. wakaka.. xD thank you very very very very very muchhssssss

my lousy watch.. >.<

then the next day, went to bangsa with evelin for shopping again.. shop shop shop.. bought my stuff again... bought lots of new stuffs for this coming CNY.. can even wearing all new dresses for the whole 15 days (from chu yi to chu shi wu).. this CNY really costs me a lot.. =.= i gotta stop shopping and buying.. STOP STOP STOP it!!! even how nice i dressing up, the fact will not be changed.. he still will be at japan.. he still will not beside me.. huh huh huh

one of my new dresses..

i like this dress so much..

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we will become fat boy and fat girl in futures.. seriously.. we ate dinner around 7pm and again went to Papparich having our supper.. actually we are not hungry, we ate because we want to eat.. we want to eat because cant tahan the desire of eating..

looking at the menu

he is posing and forced me to capture.. =.=

soya milk cincau with gula melaka

pappa nasi lemak

lychee cincau.. one of my favourite drink.. yumisssss

Papparich, Old Town, mamak shop, Ramlee burger and so forth.. eating supper be our habit, our normality.. damn... i dont want be " fei lui"... i wanna be "sui za po".. haha xD

he get hurt..

nothing is perfect in the world.. do u agree with me?

i argue with him.. i tear.. i am crying.. i am annoying.. i hate japan.. i hate him when he went to japan and leave me alone.. i am complaining this and that.. really hate!!!

christmas day.. you didnt even want to take a leave to celebrate with me.. xmas is public holiday!!! "playing and working, which is the more important??????" he asked me. OKAY, i am fine with this..

AND again..

you will be going to japan at the end of january.. didnt even come back during chinese new year.. !@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*christmas, you are here but you gotta work..

chinese new year
valentines day
our 7th anniversary

you cant be with me.. why?? cause you are in japan.. again, i !@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*......

request you whether can you go there after chinese new year.. but what is your answer? you didnt even to try and just told me it is NO CHOICE.. what can i do???

you are still young but you do not enjoy your life.. your life now is just working working and working.. what a boring life.. dont tell me you can also enjoy "youngster life" after u married.. youngster life is totally different to marriage life.. you are less burden now.. you just need to take care of me.. spend $$ on me.. after married, you need to take care of your babies.. take care of your family.. spending pattern becomes larger pool.. although you are not agree what am i saying, you will know when you becomes older..

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argue.. argue.. and argue..

i create and stir up trouble..

i did something which is totally disobbey to my heart.. seriously.. he get hurt..

im an emo babe.. im a stupid babe..

i think i hurt him deeply and significantly.. =.= i am annoying and make noise again.. i close his call and then straightly set my hp in silence mode.. he called me at least 20 times, but i didnt even pick up a call.. he was having his dinner at that time but i think he didnt finish it and just "drift" to my home.. because he knew something would happen, someone is angry.. before he reach my home, he sms me inform me he is coming.. but i replied and asked him better dont come.. at that time, no any thought in my mind and i just wanna be crazy ,even he arrives, i wont jump into his car, i wont walk out from my house.. i was mad at that time.. =.= he reached my home and called my house number, i told my bro to pick up his call and said i was sleeping.. i let him wait for 10 minutes then i only walk out to get him..

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i step out from my house.. go in his car and sit at the back.. and i just keep complaining that i am very tired and ask him go back as i didnt even ask him to come.. he came by his desire.. then i step out from his car and back to my home.. such girl really mad mad mad @_@

i back to my room and sleeppp.. i dont know when he back.. after one hour, i went out to see where is him.. wondering whether he was still there.. luckily he was not there.. he went back already.. i am waiting for his call.. but i get nothing.. he drives and roams the street to let himself calm down.. i am worrying about him now.. he is crying.. damn babe!!! he is crying until tired.. he is getting hurt.. but i still want to awake him and stir up the problems even i know he is sleeping.. =.= my heart is bleeding.. sorry, dear.. really sorry..

my stomach really damn pain now.. and my heart too.. make me cant fall in sleep.. T.T and i am forcing myself not to sleep..

p/s don't be coward

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what wrong with me?? really shock.. i feel a bit happy, a bit bad and get more shock.. two things happen on me..

firstly, i get a call from a friend who have not been kept in touch with me long time ago.. it was a private number.. when i saw it, i was wondering who is that?? so far, i'm a polite girl (is it?? wakaka =p), i answered his call in a polite way.. my emotion >>> o.O i get surprise because i thought he was forgot me and almost three months he has not been calling me ..

First shock
O.o he said he was struggling to work these few months for earning money to marry me.. O.o
wanna earning money to support our future
our family
and that's why didn't keep in touch with me last few months.. o.O

Second shock
o.O i recognised him when i was working in kl central as a promoter girl..
since we know each other
untill now
he don't know i actually had bf.. O.o
he is not my close friend..
he didn't even request whether i have a bf before but just thought that i didn't have.. o.O

we ended the call in a way that let me really feel dissapointed..
after he knew i had a bf,
his attitude changed
the way of talking altered
he felt down..
and ended the call for a reason that don't want disturbing me to play facebook..

what am i feeling??? a bit bad..
why?
because he is not gentle..
in my mind..
even i had bf, we still can be friend..
a girl who had a bf also need friends..
had a bf does not mean that i will stop socialising with my buddies..
a guy who will stop be friend with a girl that rejected his love is DUMB!!!
when get rejection
no dare to face you, talk with you
is COWARD!!!

Secondly, i received a nudge through msn from my another friend.. and again, he is also a coward (in my mind) .. but, bad sure will turn better in one day even it had been worst..

Third shock
a coward becomes gentleman *wink wink
last time
he deleted my profile in his buddies list in facebook
deleted my contact number in his handphone
deleted my email address in his msn..
i think he changed his contact number also,
it may be..
HOWEVER
he contacts me through msn.. *wink wink =)
he told me

要紧紧抓住 不要放开


不然你就会后悔
幸福不是每个人都可以拥有的
if can been long with you ,
and let him to know you will never walk away from him no matter what
什么都要互相迁就 不要乱乱发脾气
两个人在一起就应该开开心心

simple words but meaningful..


Two souls with but a single thought,
two hearts that beat as one
我们会永远幸福的

appreciate our love with our love one,
our parents,
our friends
and even who care us

------peaceful ♥♥♥♥♥♥ & harmonious ♥♥♥♥♥♥------

玫瑰玫瑰我爱你

can i possess 11 stalks or even a rose? i want rose, may i? i need rose. i love rose but rose doesn't love me because i was only TWICE received roses by him since we are together for almost seven years. =.= when the time that i am still a secondary student, i received a dozen of roses from him. at that time, i didn't feel any surprise as i already know that he will present me. haha. but really feel happy. really. hehe =p. he is not a romantic people. "charmmmmm..wuwu..heart broken" each present that i received is pointed by me or even i bought myself then i claim back from him. here a tip for you............

i hopeeee my birthday party will be on at beach one day later, do you get me??

while i was young, i really hope someone will gift me roses even a stalk, i will smile with satisfaction and happy whole the week whereas i would rather choose $$$ rather then roses (get both is the best laaa) when i grow up. rose will wither when time passing and it is damn expensive during valentine day-- a rose costs rm10. although costly, boys still will buy for their beloved girlfriend which would exchange by a hug, a kiss and a smile. it is worth!!! haha. if you have to choose either one, 10 roses or rm100. which will you choose? for me, i would prefer $$$ rather then roses and "nag nag nag" him to gift more roses because... more roses = more $$$. wakaka =p. world becomes realistic and materialistic.*sob sob by the way, girls usually attract by other who is hugging a dozen of roses, me too. full of jealous and envy. huh. why girl love rose? is it can "show" to others that my boyfriend presented me or even wanna to prove to others i got a boyfriend that love me so much? what is the meaning of rose? i show you now.. keke smart girl neh. the color of roses and the number of roses each actually brings its meaning.

red

Sincere Love & Respect, Courage & Passion

Send red roses to convey the message of your passionate love for that someone; saying "I love you"

pink

Grace and Gentility, the rose of sweet thoughts.

Send deep pink roses to show your appreciation & gratitude; saying "Thank you" Send light pink roses to convey admiration and sympathy.

yellow

In the Victorian times, yellow roses meant jealousy. But today, they signify friendship, joy, gladness and freedom, the promise of a new beginning.

Send yellow roses to brighten up someone's day; to congratulate your friends and loved ones during Joyous occasions.

white

Spiritual love & Purity, the rose of confession, the bridal rose; "You are heavenly", "I am worthy of you"

Commonly used as traditional bridal bouquet during weddings to symbolize a happy love. You can nevertheless use them to convey the message of "You are heavenly, I miss you"

lavender

Love at first sight and enchantment

Send lavender roses of course, to convey the message of your "love at first sight" with that special someone. You can nevertheless also send them if you would like to make a special impression.

orange

Passionate desire, pure enthusiasm and fascination

An excellent choice for a new relationship that you wish to pursue further. It can nevertheless also be referring to a new business partnership.

1 rose: love at the first sight; you are the one

2 roses: mutual love between both, deeply in love with one another

3 roses: i love you

6 roses: i wanna be yours

7 roses: I'm infatuated with you
9 roses: An Eternal love, together as long as we live

10 roses: You are perfect

11 roses: You are my treasured one; the one I love most in my life

12 roses: Be my steady

13 roses: Secret Admirer

15 roses: I am truly sorry, please forgive me

20 roses: Believe me, I am sincere towards you

21 roses: I am devoted to you

24 roses: Can't stop thinking about you, 24 hours everyday

33 roses: Saying "I love you" with great affection

36 roses: I will remember our romantic moments

40 roses: My love for you is genuine

50 roses: Regretless love, this is

99 roses: I will love you for as long as I live

100 roses: Harmoniously together in a century; remaining devoted as couple till ripe-old age

101 roses: You are my one and only love

108 roses: Please marry me!

**please la, if you want marry me, i don't want 108 roses, save some $$$ for us to honey moon.. hooray..

365 roses: Can't stop thinking about you, each and everyday

**don't gift me 365 roses, i know you miss me so much, i just want you treat me good, considerate my nature of barbarous and emo, care me every moment and a kiss is worthier of that...

999 roses: Everlasting and Eternal love

**if 1 rose costs rm1, need to spend rm999.. don't be stupid.. if you bought it, your girlfriend won't appreciate your actions, you will only get scold by her... LOL..

boys, understand? gambateh... whohooo~~

a moodless day T.T

damn long time didnt blogging on my blog... i should start blogging from today.. such a super lazy and sluggish girl want start blogging.. whoooo~~~ can i? maybe... im still thinking when it would last? and today, suddenlly just feel that I WANNA BLOGGING.. i think i got such feeling because of my baddd moody... It was a bad mood today.. a moodless day..

i should go out shopping alone... cause shopping will let me forget all unhappiness... but it really costs me... huh >.< last month, i told mummy, " memee, i wont shopping, even i went out i would not buy yy(clothes衣衣) again..." why i said like that because i bought almost 10+ already... and the reason is i bought them for Chinese New Year... lol... ***hey, babe... can you stop shopping stop buying... it is wasting $$$.. nevertheless, at last, i didnt do what i promised memee... since i bought, i wear some for special parties or even dinner... then, my memee asked me again, "u not said that all those yy would wear just for CNY?" me: "..............= =" so, buy, buy,buy and buy new yy again... because in my opinnion, CNY must wear new yy.. i know my actions are totally wasting $$$... but aiyoyooo.. hard to control my buying felling... my "good explanation" is for instance 1 dress costs rm150 and i would wear it at least 15 times.. means that rm150 divides by 15 is rm10... 1 time for rm10... after finished saying get scold again... !#%&*^$@!#%&*^$^*... huh @_@

blablablablabla... back to the main point... it was a moodless day... i have a bad temper because of him... i posted my private message on facebook: = = moodless today.. pls dun talk to me.. = = then one of my friends replied "take it easy babe, life is short !" i cannot take it easy, it takes to my heart... seriouly, i am angry... the valcano is erupting... bi ba boom boomsss

the first thing

last night, when i was saying to him, dont know what the hell he saw... he didnt even pay any attention on my words... sigh!!! i asked him what am i saying, he replied me "sorry, dear... i didnt listen on you... i was thinking any good plans on xmas eve..." huh... still want to bluff... you are thinking others... huh huh huh

the second thing

these few weeks, what i said.. you sure have many "opinions"... i want go to Pavillion for watching the snowing at the night... then you said that snowing will damage our health because it made from soap bubbles and gonna having dinner with family at that time... i want go Singapore for celebrating my xmas eve... then you said we will be going to johor with lenglui and friends on 28th december, dont waste $$$ and the currency exchange rate is high... $$$ can even use as an excuse.. so much objection!!! objection!!! objection!!! really hard to understand you sometimes...

the third thing

i went to connaught pasar malam with him... walaoooo... damn angry... he keeps kap lui... actually when some pretty girls pass by, i will ask him to see...but this time, huh!!! while the girl is in front of him, he kap her with spending lots of time and then she passed by, he again turns his head to back and kap again... fortunately, he didnt drool at all.. should i be happy of this? = = girls, if your dear act like that, what response do you have? in my mind, kap lui... what for??? at that moment, i just keep my angriness inside my heart... i act like nothing... because after finished kap, he asked me "why girls nowadays wear like this? look ugly laa.." actually i feel that that girl is pretty... just admit that you kap is okay what.. what for saying those bullshit to me? huh.. i will feel angry because YOU ARE MY DEAR.. plus liter bit jealous.. liter bit only laa.. kap lui is okay for me.. but can you dont kap like that???

it seems being normal that boys with rude actions and rude words but girls are not encouraging to act that... who said one??? not only human being, even the animals would show oOo to give vent to its angriness... can i? huh.. after saw this pic which downloaded from google *wink wink wink finally, i have a smileeeeeeee =)